Hopeless..

Kejenuhan rutinitas sehari-hari.. rasa ingin lari tapi ga bisa.. Pengen marah tapi mau marah ke siapa.. Semua dah jadi bubur..

Dikecewakan, merasa tidak dihargai.. sampai akhirnya merasa emang gua yang ga mampu kali ya..

Omongan-omongan di sekitar.. Yang sampai ke orgnya dengan simpang siur.. sampai akhirnya terkesan men'judge'.. *oh please dong, gua ga akan nyorot dia kalo dia bukan manager.. gua ga akan nyorot dia kalo semua org dapat bagian yang sama.. dengan kemampuan yang dibawah rata2, org itu dapet lebih.. siapa yang bisa nerima itu..*

Kejadian yang seharusnya bisa gua hindarin namun harus kejadian.. Dimana hati kecil sudah berontak mengatakan tidak tetapi kenyataan membuat gua ga bisa melawan lagih.. semua sudah diputuskan..

Sikap cuci tangan dan meninggalkan piring kotor untuk dibersihkan.. dan siapakah yang akan membersihkannya??..

Merasa dikhianati dan diperlakukan tidak adil.. di'judge' di awal untuk sesuatu yang tidak gua lakukan.. *sejelek itukah gua?.. sejahat itukah gua?..*

Semua numplek jadi satu di menu harian gua..

Apa masih ada sisa semangat untuk bertahan?.. Kayanya ngak.. Semuanya ga bisa balik seperti dulu.. Luka ini dah terlalu dalam..

Atau mungkin aku yang emang seburuk itu..

Hopeless..

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gua sedang jenuh..

A Woman's Worth

A Woman's Worth
Alicia Keys

You could buy me diamonds, you could buy me pearls
Take me on a cruise around the world
Baby you know I'm worth it
Dinner lit by candles, run my bubble bath
Make love tenderly to last and last
Baby you know I'm worth it
Wanna please wanna keep wanna treat your woman right
Not just told but to show that you know she is worth your time
You will lose if you choose to refuse to put her first
She will if she can't find a man who knows her worth, mhmn

Cuz a real man knows a real woman when he sees her
And a real woman knows a real man ain't afraid to please her
And a real woman knows a real man always comes first
And a real man just can't deny a woman's worth

If you treat me fairly I'll give you all my goods
Treat you like a real woman should
Baby I know you're worth it
If you never play me, promise not to bluff
I'll hold you down when shit gets rough
Baby I know you're worth it
She rolls the mile makes you smile all the while being true
Don't take for granted the passion that she has for you
You will lose if you choose to refuse to put her first
She will if she can't find a man who knows her worth, oh

Cuz a real man knows a real woman when he sees her
And a real woman knows a real man ain't afraid to please her
And a real woman knows a real man always comes first
And a real man just can't deny a woman's worth

No need to read between the lines, spell it out for you
Just hear this song cuz you can't go wrong when you value
A woman, woman, woman, a woman's worth

Cuz a real man knows a real woman when he sees her
And a real woman knows a real man ain't afraid to please her
And a real woman knows a real man always comes first
And a real man just can't deny a woman's worth

Cuz a real man knows a real woman when he sees her
And a real woman knows a real man ain't afraid to please her
And a real woman knows a real man always comes first
And a real man just can't deny a woman's worth

Mhmn mhmn mhmn mhmn mhmn mhmn.